Well, today is my fifth day back on the path of treating my unhealthy eating tendencies as an addiction. That means that I have let go of trying to manage my urge to eat with outside-in techniques and I’ve started paying attention to my inside-life (thoughts and feelings) first. That’s where my unhealthy eating always starts–with me ignoring what’s going on in my heart and mind that’s setting me up to pick up that first unhealthy kind of food, even though I know, after a life-time of trying, that I just CAN NOT eat it in moderation?
I’m back to getting down to the roots of why one hour I can be so desperately willing to stop eating in unhealthy ways and the next hour throw my yearning out the window for just one more chance to indulge in some kind of food that I find “delicious to the taste and very desirable.” Those words just give me the heebee-geebees when I say them. As innocent (socially acceptable) as unhealthy eating is, I know it is the Liar, Satan’s way of making my soul miserable like unto himself.
Prayerful thought: Dearest Lord, I pray for the gift of Thy Spirit to keep me conscious of the lies (negative thoughts) that set me up to hurt myself with food.